I can spend a few hours alone but I cannot spend more than a day completely alone.
I start feeling numb. Feeling sick.
Digging a hole for my insecurities and immersing myself in them.
Or just nauseous.
I’m conscious of my lack of energy without others being around.
There are many times when I miss people so much I cry.
I have a lot of love to throw at humans ahaha <3
Yes I am anxious a lot about myself but I often worry about others.
I am always walking in other people’s shoes.
I know I sound nosy and dumb but I can’t help it.
If people I love are sad, so am I.
I cannot help but worry for them, try to comfort them or give them solutions.
Many days hours will go by that I spent thinking of them, messaging them or texting them in worry.
I didn’t realize that this was one of my deepest insecurities.
Often, I love being a mess and scatterbrained.
It's as though I can journey through endless visions.
My soul is independent but I leave a trail of mess wherever I go.
Details are difficult. I can’t plan things properly.
I sometimes feel like I'm just falling apart...
All I do is annoy people.
I sometimes don't like when people do sweet things for me.
I feel bad. I constantly apologize for myself like an idiot, even if I’ve done nothing wrong.
My parents and friends have joked that I should just get a sweater that says “SORRY” on it because I’m always sorry.
About freaking everything.
I often feel like I’m not getting any work done.
I’m not even great at what I’m doing. I’m failing over and over again.
I’m not talented or intelligent.
Everything I make sucks.
I’m such a terrible person. Why do I even have friends?
There were some times I wasn’t able to be there for my friends when they needed me..
